epy bday 2 us :-)

5 sweetest things about him..

1) x pernah suke makan sushi..but 4 d sake of nak amek ati sy..die mkn jugak..haha..owh n also went to a korean concert cz i wanted 2 go badly..mcm ape je hindustani dtg tgk..sume pandang..haha

2) x suke naik LRT but naik jugak cz nk p tlg repair tyre kete sy:-)

3) he sends ubat 2 my house everytym sy sakit..gamsahamnida cem:-)

4) he PAID 4 ALL my expenses so far..mostlyla..*\(*-*)/*

5) selalu penat ikut sy p memane..shopping etc..there was dis one tym..i knw he was very tired sampai tertdo2 dlm kete cz journey 2 my kg sgt jauh..tp die x complain and as usual pretended to be very segar n all..mcmla kitorg x nampak die dh tertdo kt depan..haha:p

5 reasons y im so in luv wif him..

1) he's a sweet person 4 d reasons stated above :-)

2) he's a family person :-)

3) he takes gr8 care of me tho sometimes he annoys me just like d annoying orange:p

4) we haf gr8 chemistry 2gether..i x realize dis last tym tho ade few org dh ckp..sue mesti bangge nh:p

5) 2 b honest..last yr one of my frenz went 2 Mekah n i requested her 2 pray 4 me..basically doakan sy dpt jodoh yg terbaik..n she did..n yeah..alhamdullilah..x ask me y or how but i believe he has got somethng 2 do wif d doa..lame rite?haha but i truly believe dis is d best 4 me,,mcm ape je..but it's true..it's like combining all the circumstancial evidence n d result was so compelling at dat tym..or else, there's x better explanation for wut i've done rite?i had 2 make d decision of my life..d decision dat had turned my life upside down..d decision dat has hurt so many ppl around me..nway ..i've closed d book long tym ago..thank god things r getting better nowdays:-)

nway..i hope it's still x 2 late 2 say dis 2 him

"epy annvrsry cem!i luv u:-)"

-----> late by 1 month and 3 days:p

didnt i just tell u he's just like d annoying orange?:p

now..dis is disappointing:..

it's been a while since i last updated dis blog..n dis will b d 1st moody entry dat will b posted here..

sy sgt keras kepala..but dat doesnt mean xbleh ditegur..u cn tegur me anytym n anywhere but most of d tym u will x get d positive responses frm me..but dat doesnt mean jugak i x noted ape yg diberitahu..

n it's really disappointing 2 haf some1 2 tegur u in a very bossy way when all u need 2 do is talk 2 me nicely..

bukan x bleh tegur..i knw niat dorg baik..but 2 my defence..cn u c dat mende yg sy nk buat 2 is not even a sin..cume it will lead 2 fitnah org (as claimed)..only then cn considrd a sin..so it's x a direct sin..but these ppl yg ckp nh sah2la mmg ada buat dosa(x 2 b mentioned)..so y on earth are these ppl tegur n emo as tho i've committed d biggest sin eva? so dosa yg u buat 2 mcm mane?

im sorry if sy ade org terase ati dgn dis post but i haf x other way 2 express my feelings.plus it's my personal blog n im entitled 2 say anythng dat i want..if u x suke..simple.dont read.

sy xtau org lain..but 4 me..nk tegur org ade caranye..especially pompuan..if some1 dh biase buat sesuatu n u x suke talk 2 her nicely..bukannye emo n nak ckp pasal maruah pompuan 2.. d fact dat pompuan 2 buat dgn slambenya means yg die x tau u xsuke..if org 2 pentng 2 u like ur sis, gf, sedara or any1 yg u sgt care of..then talk 2 her nicely..unless she's ur sis..u cannot expct her 2 haf d same culture like u do get it? 2 her may be it's ok but 2 u it might be a big deal..all u need 2 do is talk nicely..d fact dat die buat doesnt mean die setuju mende 2 btul or slh..so if u xsuke..just tegur n ckp elok2..simple kan?

even dlm islam pun ckp pompuan nh mcm tulang laki kan? nak tegur jgn terlalu kasar cz nanti akan patah n jgn jugak terlalu lembut(am x sure d exact quote,but d gist is there:p)

wanna share dis wif cem..but dont thnk die akan setuju..same ade die akan jwb "mokngat" atau "awak mmg ganster" atau die akan setuju dgn teguran org 2..cz knwing him die mmg akan sgt protective mende2 mcm nih..haih..nasib badan..huhu..but i still luv u cem!B-)

but wait..dis post was supposed 2 end wif sadness n full of emotion..so..cem sy sgt sedey..meh tlg pujuk sy meh..T-T..heeee

hiking

good morning malaysia! actually wanted 2 update dis blog yesterday..but i was so tired so tdo awal..yesterday was tiring..4 d 1st tym eva..sy n cem telah berjaya mendaki(xla sgt mendaki coz kitorg jalan atas jln raye) bukit pelindung!:-0 :-0 :-0..yes i knw..im so proud of myself 2! sepatutnye yg pergi ramai..tp last2..tinggal me n cik cem je..aiman penat(cem yg ckp)..n sasah x jumpe kasut (maybe ur excuse shud be more convincing ok:p)

our plan was supposed to start at 830am but sumhow x terbgn..so at 955 i called cem..by 1030 sy dh pun terpacak kat depan umah die yang x sampai 100 meter pun dr umah sy..had to wait 4 another 10 mins as die br siap mandi..discovered later from his mom dat after i called die sambung tdo!(as expected actually:p)

both of us had not taken our bfast so cem bought milo n chocs..n our pendakian bermula tepat pukul 11 pagi!yeay!

unfortunately, baru beberapa langkah..sy tibe2 rase pening..tercungap2..maybe coz i was so excited n x warm up dulu..then muke sy jadi pucat (see..it's x dat i sengaja xnak buat mende2 adventerous mcm nih..but i believe i just x dilahirkan utk mendaki bukit..haha..so we stopped 4 a while..then i wanted 2 go back..tetibe wujud sorg makcik cine yg comel yg jalan bertongkatkan payung n die sort of bg dorongan suro kitorg naik ..aiceh..mcm ape je..huhu..

n then we continued..tapi bile dh half way..sy btul2 xlarat..n my sy percaya sy x dilahirkan utk mendaki bukit symptoms kembali menyerang..so kitorg pun dukla kat kerusi yg disediakan sekejap..cem suh sy mkn choc takut masuk angin..then we teruskan perjalanan tp sekejap je..coz sy dh xlarat..kebetulan mak cik cine comel 2 wujud kembali..so sy pun duk kat kerusi borak2 ngan die..n cem dgn yakinnye meneruskan perjalanan n dis tym around he was running!walawey..kagumkan?haha..n d rest of d story..biarla sy simpan or he will surely kill me after dis:P..let d pictures do d explanation:)


cem yg kepenatan..sian


sy yg x penat langsung!yeay!


:)


cem yg kepenatan x mcm sy yg excited mengambil gambar


terlalu penat..dlm kete pun tdo..huhu


sape kate org bersenam utk kurus je?:P

long call..

2 days more b4 my long call ..but im overly stressed ..2day is just not my day..it started off dgn :-

kene marah waktu tgh ari coz tukar plan (wpun ade salah phm..sorry jugakla..T-T)(sedey 1)..

tgk wyg half way je(sedey due)..

then just found out frm my mover dat she needs my cv! tho i x phm cz actually i've frwrded 2 her my speech dah (tot dat wud make life easier 4 her-menyesal mode-) of course la kene mara..siap kene bebel cz x dtg briefing yg kononnye 2day..like mcm mane nk taukan?coz d letter addressed 2 me frm kl bar clearly ckp my briefing was on 21 June 2010..lawyer hebat mcm mane pun i believe still use d same calender n number system mcm sykan?kan?kan?so..if dh 21 June 2010..no matter how hebat d lawyer is..he will still read it as 21 June 2010 and not 23 June 2010 kan?..haih..but since quite true jugak ape yg die ckp dat i buat keje last minute..so terima jela..haih..(sedey tige) tp sbb sedey sgt..so sedey lagi (sedey empat)..

balik umah my mum told be my dad bising cz x p anta 4 d robe 2 be dry-cleaned(defence: nak pakai sekali je kot..buat ape nak p cuci beriye)(sedey lime)..

tym dinner my dad bebel cz still xde bip..ayat die lebey kuang "Mcm mane mende mcm 2 pun awak bleh x ready?" haih..T-T(defence: harusla x ready cz x excited..it's not like i really nak mende nih:P) (sedey enam)..

haha..nway..d 3rd till 6th kesedihan 2..sume berpunce dr my sikap yg suke wat keje last minute(mmg dr sekolah lg:p)..so morale of d story..kepada anda2 yg akan long call nanti..sile pastikan mende2 nih dh dibuat awal2..jgn jd mcm sy..honestly..sy xdela epy mane pun nak long call..xde beza mane pun..lagipun sy dh rase sy dh long call last week:p

however, typical me..sy langsung x menyesal ape yg berlaku as i always believe everything happens 4 a reason..n obviously it's true coz:-

dis thing made me realized dat shud i perlukan bantuan..byk je org yg akan tlg:) (yeay 1)

i knw by nw if sy ade prob, there's always dis sum1 yg akan sentiase behind me..tq wak:) (yeay 2)

i've realized no matter how x puas ati pun sy dgn all dis protocol2 nh..all i nd 2 do is 2 just follow them n all will b over in two days' tym..gambateh (d positive iza omar..omg! im so proud of myself..T-T..:P) (yeay 3)

n best of all..i've received my long call present already!:):):)(yeay 4 n yeay 5 n yeay 6)

kesimpulannye..sy gembira n sedey same rate ari nih..bak kate ameer..gemdih!haha..well dat's wut a life is all about rite?it's how u take it..if u nak take d sadness negatively..u will not move on or be able 2 enjoy d life dat awaits 4 u..im x perfect either..i always take tym 2 rechannel all my sadness n negativity..but somehow i will always be able to see and take all d probs positively yeay!..afterall, life is all about making choices..so choose wisely n enjoy ur life..LBNL

HAKUNAMATATA..it means no worries 4 d rest of ur day..n it's d problem free philosophy!B-)

p/s..congrats awak 4 ur long call n also tq 4 d grey thingy:) actually i wanted 2 insert at least one pic tym long call awk..but i dunno how 2..sedeykan?:(..huhu

berat naik :-0

" korg mesti igt i psycho tp nk ckp jugak..sy dh naik 1kg..mekaseh:-0 "

" xpyh reply.sy dh gemuk.dh naek 1kg:-0..sedey:-( "

those were d msgs sent 2 few ppl right after i discovered i've gained 1kg dis morning (i've re-timbanged n it's 2 kilos and not 1!)....n here r d replies dat i got..

" wow. gosip nih.tp mcm nk kene tikam je :-) kurus kot "

" ko mmg bongok.aku leh bet ko tetap kecik "

" gilo. i rase u stress sbb din xde.haha. and you re staying at home cause x stress thats why "

im happy 2 haf dis kind of ppl around me..tho u know 4 sure yg they said dat jst 2 jage ur ati, but i wud luv 2 believe them!tq korg..haha..but as usualla..a reply frm sum1 yg x pernah fail 2 JAGE MY ATI ..

" nk reply jugak.hahaha bdk demok sy dh gemuk.mesti bla bla n bla.."

erm..time kasehla wak..if awak x sedar..byk2 replies..urs je yg epy sy gemuk!haha

since my berat dh naik..im planning 2 start my diet plan..2 those yg berat dh naik cz asyik duk umah..ayuh kite bersenam..haha:P..but then again..to those yg kenal me..u will knw dat i will neva eva besenam or really concern bout my weight n buat sumthing about it after dat..the only thing dat i will do 2 solve dis ialah:-

1) update status kat fb; or

b) membebel2 kat org yg rapat dgn sy ttg my berat.

or maybe both like what im doing now:-0

p/s..teruje dgr awak ckp cine ari nh..mcm real je..taula awak chinese by heart:p n plz ye wak..if nak mkn kat chinese restaurant..x cukup setakat tau ckp "air sejuk", "air panas" n "sudu" je ok:p

...

i may not show you that i miss you
i may not act like i care
but not being around you
kills me, its just not fair
but even though i feel this way
i want you to be happy
because thats what you did for me:)

disclaimer

b4 sy terlupe..sy nk bgtau yg kpd sesape yg rase xleh terime or mungkin akan rase x puas ati (wpun sy x rase sy ade kutuk sesape kat sini), cud u plz not read this blog..im serious..dat's y i edited d title..honestly ble sy tulis dis blog mmg langsung xde niat nak wat sesape kecik ati ke ape ke..shud i really nak tulis x puas ati, mungkin sy patut tulis dulu tym sy berade dlm environment yg sgt teruk..not nw ble sy sgt2 epy dgn life sy ok..plz ye sesape yg membace..sowe if sy terbunyi kasar..but i really need 2 declare dis awal2..as it has happend b4..mestila sy akan sedey if sy nak share my kegembiraan or cite ke ape tp mende 2 actually akan buat org menyampah..so 2 avoid mende2 mcm nih..shud anda rase anda bakal menyampah or xpuas ati..plz awal2 lg jgn bace ok..biar kite due2 epy dgn life kite:) p/s..i dun attack ppl dlm blog:) p/s..epy bday koru! p/s..nite awak..dh jadi ip man nanti bgtaula:)

apology n thanx..

Ari ini sy xtau nak buat ape dah..im finally keboringan duk kat umah wpun byk cite tv yg menarik..but somehow sy mcm rindukan nak keje..haha..mesti org yg kenal sy akan terkejut dgr mende nih..actually..sy pun x pecaye sy ckp nih..maybe jugak sebab cik ameer sy xde kat sini..so sy mcm kebosanan..tibe2 terbukak pulak blog yg dh dibuat berkurun dulu tp x penah tulis cz xtau nak tulis ape..ok..dat was a lie actually..i’ve been dying 2 write sumthing late last year..just 2 express my feelings..but luckily i x ikut emosi..haha

Bile pk2 balik..next week mcm 16 jun sudah..teringat sy pada kenangan 15 jun 2009..tym sy mule2 start chambering..trust me..it was a tough one..plus, selain dr ke’tough’an berade dlm dunia legal nih..at d same tym..byk pulak dugaan yg dtg..frm dipulaukan kwn sendiri..masalah bos yg mood berubah2..tempat keje yg sy ialah semuanye bermule dr tea-lady, technician, receptionist, secretary n also chambering student..n mcm2 lg yg telah sy lalui..

Trust me, i’ve learnt my lessons very very well..org yg kenal sy will know that i’ve changed. 4 better person or worst?i don’t know as it is still too early to tell.. but honestly im glad i went tru everything..i guess it makes me a better person now..bak kate org..Allah takkan duga kite mcm 2 if die tau kite xleh laluinyeJ

2 all my frenz..tq 4 accepting me back..u guys x tau how happy i am..trust me..korg sgt2 penting pd sy..i am who i am now adalah sebab korg..n im so proud n glad ade org2 mcm korg kat sekeliling sy..but i guess..sooner or later..each one of us akan kene amek jalan masing2 jugak kan?but dat doesn’t mean yg kite ilang satu same lain kan?T-T..so sy really harap anda akan epy dgn life anda..

2 my frenz yg still xleh accept me n ameer bersame..i’m sorry..i knw it’s so horrible of me 2 do wut i did..but i believe unless n until u’re in my position..there’s no use 4 me 2 further explain..thus..apology je yg mampu sy beri..sy sedey if mende nih buat kite putus kawan..but i guess sy xleh la sgt selfish kan?nak all d happiness in d world..in fact, i knw very well yg sy xkan dpt sume..so sy x simpan dlm ati..but trust me..im glad 2 haf u in my life tho sekejap..n sorry again 4 everything..

n lbnl..2 saudara mohd amirudin mohamad..tq 4 everything..tq cz selalu ade dgn sy waktu sy susah..wpun sy rase itu mmg tanggungjwb awak cz u’re d one who brought all these probs 2 me..haha..kidding..tq again awak..as i said..im glad 2 haf u in my life cem B-)

"Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said that it'd be easy; they just promised it'd be worth it."

p/s..awak..blog sy buruk..x cantik..ajarla mcm mane nak cantikkan:P

p/s..tq jugak 2 kwn2 n adik kepada kawan sy :p n sesape sajelah yg sentiase menyokong dr dulu n buat sy teharu dgn kate2 korg(u knw who u r)..syg korang..muah